thanks for following ^^ your name sounds so cool :)

And we had to write when in our lives we’ve experienced a bad/good conscience. Everyone always mucks around with this stuff, but I wrote the usual stuff and then about how I’ve always had a bad conscience about surviving the crash when Alain didn’t and how if we who were asking about why the DVD player wasn’t working hadn’t been so spoilt and demanding, the coach driver might never have got distracted and crashed into the truck and I blame myself for that. If we hadn’t of kept asking why the DVD player wasn’t working, Alain wouldn’t have called the bus company and asked the driver about it.

Last week or so, I had my first nightmare about the whole thing in two and a half years. I dreamt that I was sorting through tapes and I put one in my CD player and then suddenly there I was, watching the whole thing happen, standing in the middle of the row in the bus, like a ghost.

It angers me though how they did fuck all to help my class. We had a psychologist come round ONCE and all he did was talk about how to sleep peacefully or some shit and I tried that that night and it didn’t work. The other class lost two of their classmates and they had a psychologist round often, but only our teacher died, so obviously, we didn’t need a psychologist, which shows how much they now. I see my ex-classmates every so often and they just pretend it never happened and keep it to themselves. One guy who kept it to himself has real problems now. Last year, he apparantly went up to the blackboard in a trance and wrote all over it about what happened and how it was the worst day of his life. I didn’t believe it at first but I went past the classroom and saw what he’d written. Oh yeah, that definitely means he’s fine.

I don’t even know why all of a sudden, I’m talking about it. It just happens every so often that I need to talk or I feel like going insane. Funny, how that at the beginning of that day, all I was concerned about was spending my birthday away from my family. If only that had  just been it.

Why is it, that in food, with the letter U, only I thought of Uncle Ben’s? Cause I’m awesome :P

And because I once helped my neighbour’s sister who had to try and find a food beginning with each letter of the alphabet. And I suggested that cause we found nothing else.

Usually it’s the Big Ben tune (no idea why).

Oh yeah, Schuman,  we be beating you in the cool factor (Y)